Secrets

It’s taken me two years to post this. I kept it in draft all this time ignoring it. I now feel it’s a safe space among us bloggers and readers to post. There is nothing to hide.

I was standing at a bus stop holding my face up to the sun thinking about current relations in my life when suddenly I realized just how many events and experiences in my life have been kept a secret! How many relationships held a secret in one way or another. I was standing there just floored by the sudden thought… the pattern just never occurred to me.

Especially men, my fathers violence towards my mother, my suppressed marriage, my first new relationship after ending a 16 year marriage, and finally my new found love and discovering his addiction to alcohol that regrettably took his life 15 years ago.

Secrets kept are not healthy, when secrets are held within they will begin to simmer, then boil and gradually overflow or explode and thats when it becomes dangerous. There is resentment, grudges and hateful feelings not only to the significant other you are keeping the secret about but to your precious self as well. There will be damage. It’s destructive. You can’t stay boxed in holding on to the secret, because to suppress your feelings and not let your feelings be told only turns negative itself and creates a weakness. One way or another you will be affected. The positive side to this cause and effect is if you catch it in time you can rebel and reveal the truth, reconcile in time before there is too much damage done. You can break away from the solitude, it won’t be easy, their will be challenges but in the long run you will be set free!

Set yourself free!

I’m unlocking one more secret….after all secrets of love is not meant to be hidden only celebrated. I have to make a choice. I’m beginning to feel the freedom.

I am strong, I can do this.

I’m here.

love eva

Valentine Mama’s

img_2907-1.jpgValentine Day is my favourite time of year, It’s an opportunity to share a piece of our heart in so many ways. May it be chocolates for the office or that one person we think about all the time. How about hugging our daughters and sons and lovely grandchildren which I cannot resist. Tell them they are perfect just the way they are, say I love you, say I care. It’s not too late. Our partners, friends, neighbours, sweethearts, and especially out Mama’s.  Just show love, one way or another it will be received for it is all we need!

I love you all, especially Mama!

hugs Eva xoxo

Stairway to Love

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Love grows one step at a time. Love is an energy that provides us opportunities to do better, to learn from our mistakes, to understand our pain, heal and supports us to carry on. It’s love’s energy that labours at all our endeavours and challenges and like a stairway to a higher understanding awaits for us to reach out to it but it takes patience, awareness and mindfulness. We can achieve all we aspire with love as our foundation. Know that love is always there for us, around us, surrounds us, and grows through our lifetime one step at at time.

Stand By Me

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Oh those subtle things in life, the little things that matter and makes an impact on our existence.  I found this poem Believe In Yourself in a tucked away box of trinkets and memories. As I pulled this poem out I remembered the day my sweet loving mother gave it to me… I think I was in my late teens maybe early twenties. As the memory began to surface a deep sense of love swept over me because on that day when I read the words it resonated deep in me, it was like a moment of awe… an inspiration spark of hope that everything is going to be okay, its going to turn out, keep on reaching for your dreams.

My message of today is to share with others your most precious moment that gave you strength and lift you. I share this poem to you and you can move it forward on to someone dear to you, it doesn’t matter how young or old. You never know when such a gesture can change a persons life in a positive way. My mother is still as impact full today as she was then. Thanks mom for always believing in me. You are awesome and indeed one of a kind, I love you♥

 

 

Listen with your Heart

It’s our heart that knows, our heart leads us to happiness. For some of us it takes time, to understand or comprehend what happiness really means.

For me? Well I had no idea how much happiness there was to experience. Through each stage of my life’s journey I thought to my self with contentment ” this is as good as it gets, I’m okay with what I have…..what more can I ask for” “I love my life” But my heart tagged at my senses,  gravitated to more…wanting more, maybe it was seeking ways to sustain the feeling of happiness.
Yet, listening to my heart was sometimes painful… costing grievance for others, but my heart was calling out to me so strongly I really had no choice but to follow.
It led me through a series of unknown mysterious paths but each one offered me a resting spot especially when times were challenging.
I’m here now.
I’m just where I want to be and cannot comprehend being more happy then I am now. So that means there may be more that lay a head? And what am I going to do about it? My only answer is I’m going to have to follow it… and prepare for the witnessing of tears, mine and yours. The quest for happiness isn’t always easy but it is attainable. Just listen to your heart and it will lead you, I promise-it loves you.

I Who Did Not Die

img_1799  An inspiring book based on two soldiers of the Iran Iraq War written by Meredith May.
Najah an Iraqi soldier left for dead was saved by Zahed a young Iranian medic soldier on the battle field. Both imprisoned as POW, both were claimed dead by their families, both held on to their dreams to a point of manifestation!
One wonders after all the pain, fear, tears, lost and broken spirit how these two soldiers miraculously stayed alive and freed their way out of hell and into the hands of Canada’s haven.  Twenty five years later, here in this beautiful city of Vancouver, the two soldiers find themselves sitting across from each other in the lobby of a non profit organization VAST (Vancouver Association of Survivors of  Torture).  Now the recollection of the past have been written….the untold story is now unfolded….in fact this story will give you renewed hope in humanity. An example of the power of positive change respectfully.

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Photos of the day the book signing took place at Chapters located Broadway/Granville St. Holding hands in a victorious gesture are Najah and Zahed

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On this day the family and friends gathered to support them. it was indeed a memorable and proud day:)

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What’s Your Vision?

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My vision is to facilitate vision board workshops in the community and workplace. It gives me great joy for it grows my heart fonder for humanity.

A vision of a deserving life of happiness.We are born to be happy in this life, and to empower ourselves  to manifest a vision we dare to dream of our own is an ultimate goal to accomplish. We all have needs, desires, wants and dreams, but rarely do we allow ourselves to reach out and set our minds to attain them. Through the practice of vision boards we provide ourselves an opportunity to bring our dreams to light, to allow to surface so that we may be reminded of what we are worth and deserving of.

Our dreams are on standby waiting for our command!

Tell me, what’s your vision?